TRUST.

‘trust’ c. 1200: “reliance on the veracity, integrity, or other virtues of someone or something”

The word ‘trust’ is a tricky one for me and it’s because what is impinged upon ‘trust’ is the notion of letting go and letting God – something I definitely know I struggle to do.

Why?

Hi, my name is Tolulope Karunwi and I am a control freak.

I love to know what’s happening and the absence of this generates a sense of destabilisation in my soul, I feel unsettled and uncomfortable and…scared.

But whilst enjoying the Word with one of my bezzie-mates earlier on today, I was reminded on how I have prayed incessantly to trust in God more. But I also realised that perhaps I struggled because I don’t really know what ‘trusting in God’ actually means. Hence this post.

We studied this verse today:

“Trust in and rely confidently on the Lord with all your heart and do not rely on your own insight or understanding.”

~ Proverbs 3:5 NLT

And I finally noticed something I never noticed before. If trust is – as the etymological meaning inserted above suggests, a reliance on someone then it’s clear that trusting in God denotes a firm reliance on Him.

Trust can only be birthed when you know who He is.

But to trust in God, we have to know Him. There is no way I am going to tell my whole life story – flaws and all to someone I don’t trust. In the same way, I don’t think God is inclined to offer counsel and guidance and practical steps if we do not display a genuine sense of trust in who He is and the fact that He is Sovereign and all-knowing and that He has our best interests at heart.

I admit, it is difficult because we can’t actually see God in the way I see my laptop right now. The world does suggest that you have to see it to believe it but in developing a faith that transcends beyond my mere mortal senses, in acknowledging that His ways are truly not our ways – it becomes easier.

It becomes easier because in following a few key steps, I find solace in the fact that God is good. His ways are good. His thoughts of us are good. And this encourages me to seek to:

  1. Know Him: I want to get to know Him more. I want to seek His face, seek His will, seek His intentions, seek Him. The best way I know how to do this is by ingesting and meditating upon His word. I’ve realised that this can be done through various means – through listening to an edifying podcast that’s spirit-led and based in His word, through listening to music laced in His word, through watching a sermon laced in His word – these are all variations and means of consuming His word. But ultimately, it all starts with – His Word.

“In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.”

John 1:1 KJV

2. Trust Him: By getting to know Him, I am privileged to learn more about the character of God. The next step is to believe what I’ve learnt, to hold onto it with all my heart and to have faith that He is real, He is ever-present, He is kind, He is loving, He is just, He is faithful, He is loyal. He is…and thus I am. By getting to know Him, I am encouraged to believe that His word is true.

“Taste and see that the LORD is good; blessed is the one who takes refuge in him.”

Psalm 34:8 NIV

3. Walk with Him: When that belief is firm, I am encouraged to walk with Him, to move as He moves, to obey as He asks, to release all my previous assumptions and expectations of how He wants me to move and to allow the Holy Spirit to lead me in doing that which pleases Him. The Holy Spirit brought my attention to the fact that when you’re walking with God, it’s either He’s graced for you to be brought up to His speed and walk at his pace OR you’re walking behind Him. And this is precisely what I’ve consistently failed to understand. My ‘wanting to know’ behaviour has led me to try and run ahead of God and each time I’m brought back, I’m reminded that we can never, ever be in front or ahead of Him!

You will not leave in a hurry, running for your lives. For the LORD will go ahead of you; yes, the God of Israel will protect you from behind.

Isaiah 52:12 NLT

Do you know what I find so comforting about this scripture? Apart from being my promise for the year (and an apt one at that!!!), it not only indicates that God goes ahead of us but it also speaks to the nurturing nature of this God I serve. He ‘will protect you from behind.’ God – the maker of heaven and earth, this all-knowing, all-powerful presence, he’s got our back.

He’s got your back.

I think it’s comforting to know He goes before us. He goes to prepare the place for us. Ensure the environment is just right, the timing is just right and that everything is according to His will. To ensure everything is ‘good’. We see it throughout the story of creation. After each thing He made, He looked at it and said it was ‘good.’ How much more the tapestry of our lives, which he weaves together so delicately?

“I am Yahweh, and when the right time comes, I will accomplish it swiftly!””

Isaiah 60:22

I LOVE this scripture, because it reminds me that He knows best and will never put me in a position when things aren’t ready. He is a perfectionist and through trusting in Him, I can release and relinquish all control – believing that not only does He have full control of my life, but He will show me how to move, what to say, when to go. I truly believe that – for us all.

L E T G O & L E T G O D

What areas of your life do you need to entrust into His hands today?


#SOUNDOFJERICHO

So, I was so certain that ‘Communion’ by Maverick City Music ft Steffany Gretzinger and Brandon Lake would be the song for this post – because it was the song laid upon my heart after we were done with our bible study earlier today! However, ‘The Writer’ by Ellie Goulding – a beautiful throwback which I remember listening to religiously when I was younger just finished playing on shuffle and the lyrics are so apt for what I feel this post is trying to communicate:

Why don’t you be the artist and make me out of clay?
Why don’t you be the writer and decide the words I say?

~ ‘The Writer’, Ellie Goulding (2010)

So I guess, the song for this post is ‘The Writer’ – because it highlights a sense of release. Though her intentions may not have been in the context of a relationship with the Lord Almighty, to me that’s precisely what it denotes. A need to let Him be God. To let Him move in our lives. To let Him do what He’s willed on our behalf because His plans are always for good, always.

I pray you’re blessed as you listen and you release something, anything – no matter how small or big and trust that He has it under His control and will not leave you in the dark for long:

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