no one really knowsĀ the silent battles we have to faceĀ the pains we have to braceĀ the storms we have to braveĀ
itās all internalĀ we canāt see itĀ yet we feel itĀ itās withinĀ
the mental gymnasticsĀ of deciding - can I handle it?Ā can we do this withoutĀ apologisingĀ apologising for it the next dayĀ when everyoneās asleepĀ and well, weāre inĀ painĀ
the pain of letting someone downĀ of having to turn that frown upside downĀ by forceĀ because we have so much to live forĀ of courseĀ
but sometimes itās just longĀ sometimes itās just annoying and wrongĀ wrong to have to feel this wayĀ as the weather changesĀ leaves fallĀ temperature endangersĀ species dying outĀ just like these cellsĀ evaporating into thin airĀ and leaving without a careĀ
without thinking how it would make me feelĀ to know my body is no longer made of steel becauseĀ you canāt protect itĀ in fact you infect itĀ you argue with each other, wrestleĀ and next thing I know Iāve been injectedĀ with that morphineĀ oh that saline solutionĀ the huff and puff of the oxygen maskĀ more constant & matter of factĀ than evolutionĀ
itās a routineĀ the way things areĀ but not the way they should beĀ because I serve a living GodĀ who says Heās healed meĀ and I donāt want to doubt HimĀ even when I shout at HimĀ cause I feel He gave me thisĀ but then I realise He gives me blissĀ
what He gaveĀ was His sonĀ died on the crossĀ for all of us Ā weāve heard the jargonĀ we know the drillĀ weāve heard these same thingsĀ we know the spielĀ
but do we really stop to understandĀ what 'conquering the grave' really means?Ā what having 'power over death' truly is?Ā how His blood truly heals?Ā
I donāt think I doĀ in fact Iām yet toĀ so Iām going to lay here in the bosom of his armsĀ and let his fire refine meĀ from the inside outĀ
Iām gonna call on His nameĀ the only name that savesĀ and prayĀ and declareĀ and sayĀ
I am healed.Ā I am sane.Ā sickle cell, have your wayĀ because you wonāt hurt me any longerĀ you wonāt fight, vying for my attentionĀ you wonāt put asunderĀ
I am redeemedĀ Iāve been set freeĀ thanks be to GodĀ for I am healed.
Outstanding šš¾šš¾šš¾šš¾šš¾!!!!!!!
ššššš much appreciated!!!