Selfish Cells

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no one really knowsĀ 
the silent battles we have to faceĀ 
the pains we have to braceĀ 
the storms we have to braveĀ 

it’s all internalĀ 
we can’t see itĀ 
yet we feel itĀ 
it’s withinĀ 


the mental gymnasticsĀ 
of deciding - can I handle it?Ā 
can we do this withoutĀ 
apologisingĀ 
apologising for it the next dayĀ 
when everyone’s asleepĀ 
and well, we’re inĀ 
painĀ 

the pain of letting someone downĀ 
of having to turn that frown upside downĀ 
by forceĀ 
because we have so much to live forĀ 
of courseĀ 


but sometimes it’s just longĀ 
sometimes it’s just annoying and wrongĀ 
wrong to have to feel this wayĀ 
as the weather changesĀ 
leaves fallĀ 
temperature endangersĀ 
species dying outĀ 
just like these cellsĀ 
evaporating into thin airĀ 
and leaving without a careĀ 

without thinking how it would make me feelĀ 
to know my body is no longer made of steel becauseĀ 
you can’t protect itĀ 
in fact you infect itĀ 
you argue with each other, wrestleĀ 
and next thing I know I’ve been injectedĀ 
with that morphineĀ 
oh that saline solutionĀ 
the huff and puff of the oxygen maskĀ 
more constant & matter of factĀ than evolutionĀ 


it’s a routineĀ 
the way things areĀ 
but not the way they should beĀ 
because I serve a living GodĀ 
who says He’s healed meĀ 
and I don’t want to doubt HimĀ 
even when I shout at HimĀ 
cause I feel He gave me thisĀ 
but then I realise He gives me blissĀ 

what He gaveĀ 
was His sonĀ 
died on the crossĀ 
for all of us
Ā 
we’ve heard the jargonĀ 
we know the drillĀ 
we’ve heard these same thingsĀ 
we know the spielĀ 

but do we really stop to understandĀ 
what 'conquering the grave' really means?Ā 
what having 'power over death' truly is?Ā 
how His blood truly heals?Ā 

I don’t think I doĀ 
in fact I’m yet toĀ 
so I’m going to lay here in the bosom of his armsĀ 
and let his fire refine meĀ 
from the inside outĀ 

I’m gonna call on His nameĀ 
the only name that savesĀ 
and prayĀ 
and declareĀ 
and sayĀ 

I am healed.Ā 
I am sane.Ā 
sickle cell, have your wayĀ 
because you won’t hurt me any longerĀ 
you won’t fight, vying for my attentionĀ 
you won’t put asunderĀ 

I am redeemedĀ 
I’ve been set freeĀ 
thanks be to GodĀ 
for I am healed.

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