So I experienced a period of drought. Like my spiritual palate was dry, dehydrated, famished – all of the above. But once I realised how much I NEED the Word of God to survive, I held onto my Bible for dear life and made the vow (maybe the millionth time, LOL) to not let go of it again.
I believe it was God’s will for me to open up to this part of Galatians – which has been on my reading list for a while now. This is because, though I had actually read this part of the Bible, it was suddenly so much newer and fresher and the revelations I gained were so incredibly apt for how I was feeling.
Okay, some context: I woke up afraid for my life because I felt I had fallen in the area of sexual sin yet again. Up till this point I was in a place where I had become so disillusioned to the idea of ‘freedom’ from this bondage of sin and had become accustomed to the fact that it might be a struggle I have all my life. BUT…I started reading a novel my wonderful friend had sent me called, ‘Finally Lust Free’ by Pastor Hlompho Phamodi and all it said was simply a confirmation that my line of thinking had been absolutely, positively FALSE. I was reminded that
“the enemy is only as strong as you allow him in your life”
and so I have that power at work within me (1 John 4:4) that can and has already defeated him. Once I regained my sense of confidence over the issue, my mindset was somewhat placed at ease. But the dream I had that led to me waking up in fear was very much a wake up call to acknowledge that the devil will prey on any area that is dry or unattended to. My spiritual life had not been nurtured or fed because I was lacking in my fill of the Word. Hence, as the opportunist he is, he seized the moment and I ended up having a vivid dream where I saw how the process of me falling via lustful thinking & masturbation truly occurs. It was so surreal because I was witnessing myself betray my own body and it was such an example of why the Bible says:
‘This is why you must keep running away from sexual immorality. For every other sin a person commits is external to the body, but immorality involves sinning against your own body.’ ~ 1 Corinthians 6:18
I know I had seen and read this before and even referenced it in my first ‘tell-all’ on this platform concerning my journey. Suddenly, it was so much clearer. The scales – I hadn’t even realised were present – fell off and I truly can see clearly now.
Once I spoke to my accountability partners and realised the devil was trying to trap me in fear and that the answer was to tackle my blind spot i.e. my spiritual aridness, I picked my bible and arrived at these set of verses.
“In this freedom Christ has made us free [and completely liberated us], stand fast then and do not be hampered and held ensnared and submit again to a yoke of slavery [which you have once put off.]”
This verse stood out to me because it reminded me that because Jesus died on that cross, because his death symbolises the death to sin and its destructive force, I had been saved homie. Like there is 0 association between me and sin. And furthermore because I’ve made the choice to give my life to Him – whatever He likes or doesn’t like, I will like or not like. Simple as.
Reading these verses reminded me of the importance of one key, vital word within the understanding and guarding of my Faith:
‘If you want to be made holy by fulfilling the obligations of the law, you have cut off more than your flesh—you have cut yourselves off from the Anointed One and have fallen away from the revelation of grace!’ ~ Galatians 5:4
Ultimately FAITH is what saves us.
‘Jesus responded, “Your faith heals you. Go in peace, with your sight restored.”[a] All at once, the man’s eyes opened and he could see again, and he began at once to follow Jesus, walking down the road with him.’ ~ Mark 10:52
After reading these verses I felt encouraged. I felt God looking at me straight in the eyes telling & asking me:
“You were running the race nobly. Wo has interfered in (hindered and stopped you from) heeding and following the Truth?”?
The devil enjoys our stagnant periods. It’s at this moment he will legitimately work overtime to ensure you remain there and will ensure any and everything is a hindrance to the immense level of growth promised through a pursuit of Christ Jesus.
“So neither he who plants nor he who waters is anything, but only God who gives the growth” ~ 1 Corinthians 3:6–7
‘You make known to me the path of life; in your presence there is fullness of joy; at your right hand are pleasures forevermore.’ ~ Psalm 16:11
So I’ve made a decision. I love God. I know I need Him and if anything, IMMA MAKE THE DEVIL SO MAD HE HAS NO CHOICE BUT TO LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE.
‘Handmade’ by Aaron Cole: So my friend had been telling me to listen to this song for the longest time and because I was enduring a ‘spiritual drought’ , my spirit was rejecting all things linked toy my bestie, Jesus. But I finally felt restored and so I decided to search for this song and listen. Mate, when I tell you the beat, the lyrics everything is right up my street. As it began, it served as yet another reminder that we:
Gotta have that prayer gotta prepare
Cause the devil he be coming out he be tryna scare
~ ‘Handmade’ by Aaron Cole
It even inspired me to create a new playlist called ‘Litty Vibes’ because it’s precisely the kind of music I love and search for in the world not knowing I could find it with individuals inspired by the Word. So without further ado, here’s ‘Handmande’! Listen & be blessed:
Peace & Love,