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 “Let us come before him with thanksgiving and extol him with music and song.” ~ Psalms 95:2 NIV

Okay, so this post was on my heart for months upon months. And I went back and forth deciding upon whether or not to post it because I was still LIVING it and didn’t know how to fully express myself. In fact, I am STILL living it. (LOL). Alright let me break it down.

I love music. I love dancing. I love good energy.

However, I began to notice that certain tunes had a negative effect on me – specifically my thoughts and what I would dwell on. It might sound crazy but I truly believe that when you open your heart to receive Jesus Christ he begins to change you from within and slowly things you felt were harmless begin to show themselves as true vices in your life. Music became one of those for me.

Music is a powerful weapon.

“Atmospheres are going to come through music, because music is in a spiritual thing of its own….. you hypnotise people to where they go right back to their natural state which is pure positive … and when you get people at that weakest point, you can preach into the subconscious what we want to say …..  ~ Jimi Hendrix

To me it’s quite harrowing to think these artistes have that level of control. They always discuss how it’s an amazing gift to be able to make people ‘feel something’ but if what I’m feeling isn’t of God quite frankly, it needs to be cut..ASAP (Rocky – LMAOO, couldn’t help it)

It can take you to places in your mind that you shouldn’t always be yet your flesh desires to be. It can become your sole source of education – and not always a highly verified source.  For example, I can assure you the Trey Songz did not invent sex and his idea of it is quite different to what my Bible says. (Damn I’ve become that babe – LMAOOOOOO #WhatHappensWhenYourLoveForGodComesFirst)


Now don’t get me wrong, music has an effect on us in very different ways. So this isn’t to dictate what you should be doing nor do I feel I am privy to the answers on how to live a Godly lifestyle. However, this is simply sharing from my experience in the hopes that it’ll inspire you in some way or encourage you to see things from a new and interesting perspective.

For me, I’m a lyrics girl. I’ve always wanted to be that babe who knew all the words to every amazing song – which is ironic because I always join hypes SO DAMN LATE. However, once I finally do believe the hype, best believe you will recognise that I know that song and I’m vibing to it.

So I couldn’t complete this post as I hadn’t shared my struggle & journey with sexual sin just yet, but praise be to God now I have.  An understanding of how music and sexual sin is so strongly interconnected in my life was definitely needed in my life and hence in being honest on this platform, I can now share what that connection is for me. 


So I was speaking to my sister today, and we were discussing how POWERFUL Music truly is. She shared with me how many times, artistes we listen to are surrounded by a plethora of skimply clad women, drugs, alcohol which they deem to be all part of their ‘research’ in order to achieve a specific vibe. This is something that is common to the music industry especially for rap/trap which is the current moneymaker in the business of music and what I would most likely choose to listen to because as we all can agree – it is a vibe. But what truly is this ‘vibe’ I am subscribing to? My sister revealed to me a new understanding of the depths of this. After receiving all they need from the drugs, the drinks, the women – these artistes then proceed to enter the booth and pour it out all into the music. They transfer this energy into their music.

Music is spiritual.


Now, the Devil is notoriously known as the Head of Music in heaven. Many dispute this but logically speaking, as he was the Head angel, referred to as the “anointed guardian cherub” (Ezekiel 28:14), and as worship is what angels are called to do in heaven – 1+1=2, he was the worship leader. Hence, as one who is experienced in music on such a level, the devil now used the opportunity as the prince of this fallen world we live in, to control the music we listen to. He cannot control us, hence he controls the next best thing – what we are influenced by.

“ which you once walked, following the course of this world, following the prince of the power of the air, the spirit that is now at work in the sons of disobedience” ~ Ephesians 2:2  ESV

I’ve just read an article that equated this ‘power of the air’ to the devil’s control of the airwaves i.e. radio, television and anything that we are exposed to through this digitalised world we live in. What we are exposed to can have such a detrimental effect on us, and the scariest part is, we might not even realise it.

Many a time, I have internalised certain lyrics, certain messages from songs and they have manifested in placing me in deep anxiety or sadness or producing an environment where I’d feel encouraged to masturbate or visit pornographic sites. All this, from music.

Now I know, I know – to many people it’s truly not that deep. But now that I’ve had this understanding, I can’t turn away from it. It’s become a real revelation in my life and has made me have that desire to change my playlists and my music library to solely have songs that edify me in the Word without constantly having to open my bible. It becomes the Word brought to life which I am encouraged to meditate on in addition to going to the original source and soaking the words even moreso.

“Keep this Book of the Law always on your lips; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful.” ~ Joshua 1:8 NIV


“Your word is a lamp to guide my feet and a light for my path.” ~ Pslams 119:105 NLT

I realised how important this was after watching a clip of the BTS creation of ‘I am’ by Kirk Franklin. The studio session began with a Bible Study. They were literally inviting the Holy Spirit’s presence into the room which is why when you listen to certain songs, you gain conviction, you gain healing, you gain encouragement. So basically, the devil is a copycat. Because the same way the Spirit of transformation and growth and love and healing is released into gospel music, is the same way spirits of anger, lust, indulgence, greed, insecurity can be released into secular music.

The sooner I’ve come to visualise this, the quicker it is for me to desire to listen to music that will bring me closer to God. That will not distract me from the purpose He’s placed upon my life. And I am so grateful to God because it is only Him that could’ve transformed my heart to feel this way.

“For it is God who produces in you the desires and action that please him” ~ Philippians 2:13 GWB

Music can save.

So I’m now in a place where I want Music to bring the Word to life for me. I want to feel encouraged. I want my eyes to well up in tears out of the sheer admiration I have for my Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ. Now it isn’t easy. I do find myself dipping in and out, seeking to get a feel of that vibe I enjoy so much so I can dance and be ‘free.’ . But I’ve realised my soul no longer desires it hence the enjoyment is simply self-gratification which is temporary and doesn’t last. Therefore since this ‘freedom’ has a time limit it isn’t really Freedom then I do go back and forth, I do fall off but I am so determined to ensure that all I listen to glorifies my Lord and Saviour in one way or another.

“So then faith cometh by hearing, and hearing by the word of God.” ~ Romans 10:17


‘Make Room’ by Jonathan McReynolds: This song essentially is the epitome of this verse ‘Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God–this is your true and proper worship.” It empowers you to give ALL of yourself to God. In making room for Him to work in you, he removes the desire for anything that isn’t pleasing to Him and gives you beauty for ashes, transforming you from the inside out.



Additionally if you’re in need of a change, and would like to feel more edified by what you listen to, then please follow this YouTube page my friend recommended to me, it has ALL genres – rap, trap, hip-hop you name it and guess what? It’s all Spirit-filled gospel music.

You can also follow me on Spotify as the majority of my public playlists are gospel-based

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& before I leave, one of my beautiful, Spirit-filled sisters-in-Christ shared this beautiful experience she had with me and I have been so blessed by it, furthermore it is a practical example of what ‘Make Room’ by Jonathan McReynolds ministers to. Please read and be blessed. 

Peace & Love,

Tolz xo


By Tolz 👑

My thoughts are best expressed by writing.
So that's what I do - I write.

It's how I make sense of it all.
My prayer is that someone somewhere is blessed or is able to relate to what I write.

"Having gifts that differ according to the grace given to us, let us use them..." ~ Romans 12:6

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