Wow, I am so in awe of God right now.
The word ‘forgotten’ had always felt like a constant presence in my life. For a long time, I felt invisible and mute and lost in the crowd. But God knew that wasn’t my story. My name Tolulope Biodoumoye Karunwi quite literally means –
‘to God be the glory’//’Child of Comfort’
so there was no way I could bear that name and remain with such detrimental and deadly views.
This blog was created as a place for me to redevelop a sense of respect and love for myself and to hopefully inspire someone out there to do the same. I am far from perfect, I am still learning every day but it feels SO good to look back on certain thoughts and convictions I had about myself that I now can confidently say were absolutely F A L S E.
I am not forgotten.
I am not invisible.
I am not mute.
God has used so many beautiful angels, to remind me of these facts and for the first time I can see the growth, I can see how far God has brought me. I no longer look in the mirror and think, “Wow, Tolu you’re so easily lost in a crowd” but I look in the mirror and think “Wow, Tolu you’re beautiful.” It’s been such a blessing to hear the description ‘sunshine’ seep from someone else’s lips as it was a family nickname I thought was used just to make me feel good about myself. I didn’t think it was something other people would EVER notice in me and it is an honour to attend a University that is filled with so many encouraging and supportive people who make you feel like $100 every single day. (S/O University of Warwick!!!)
So I guess this is my way of saying thank you to anyone who actually reads my blog – for joining me on this journey of self-discovery and self-understanding. It is still ongoing but it’s reached a nice peak where I can reflect and be thankful for all the lessons learned along the way. I also want to encourage anyone who is in a dark place right now, or just a space that doesn’t feel comfortable or liberating. I would like to remind you that:
“It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then and do not let yourself be burdened again by a yoke of slavery.”
God has not created us to live in FEAR. We have not been created to remain lost in a crowd or stuck in a corner.
Be BOLD in your passion, enjoy LIFE because you have one and most importantly LOVE yourself.
Peace & Love,