‘Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me’
– “You Found Me”, The Fray
I’m a Christian. But that word has never meant as much as I can confidently say it means to me right now. In order to explain what I’m addressing, I thought it would only be right to express my savvy revision skills through an acronym:
C – Crying. Within this year, I haven’t cried so much unto God, pouring my soul out onto him and revealing my inner mind. From expressing my anger concerning Derek’s death on Grey’s Anatomy (that shit got DEEP, it honestly felt personal), to A-level woes..crying has been my release and my way of getting naked in front of God.
H – Happy. I’ve felt happy in his presence. I’ve felt happy knowing that someone sees ME, sees TOLU for who she truly is and who no one else on this planet will ever understand.
R – Righteous. I’ve felt like he’s led to me do the right things even when my flesh tells me I don’t want to. He’s made my conscience stronger and continues to strengthen it day by day.
I – Intelligent. He’s sparked that sense of curiosity in me where I now look at situations I experience and try my best to relate it back to how I see him, and my understanding of him.
S – Sin. ‘For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.’ Hi, my name is Tolulope Karunwi and I am a Sinner.
T – Talk. I can talk to him about ANYTHING and not feel afraid of being judged.
I – Imagine. I’m given the opportunity to DREAM. And not those far-fetched dreams that I seemed to get lost in when I was younger, but to imagine how he’s going to use me for something I will never be able to articulate nor do I know of just yet.
A – Answers. He’s given me answers to so many prayers and is still in the process of doing so.
N – Nepotism. Yes, I know God doesn’t have favourites but there’s no other word I can think of to describe how lucky I feel to be immersed in his Love.
And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 4:7)
Peace & Love,