“I wish that I was 18 to do all the things you read in the magazines..”
– ’18’ by 5 Seconds of Summer
As childish as that may sound, that line was literally my prominent thought a few years ago. I honestly always believed that 18 and 21 were the prime ages, the best ages, the creme de la creme of ages. I was SO envious of people at this age and felt that when I turned this age, it was a confirmation that ‘Momma, I made it!’
But no. Sadly little Tolu’s dreams don’t always come true.
I’ve now recently turned 18 and I don’t know why but it’s felt so exhilarating yet SO scary at the same time. The other day I almost started crying at the thought that in a matter of 2 years, my teen years will be long behind me. And I’m not going to lie, it scares me so much to think that I’m considered to be an adult. However, it’s not all bad..with all that Fear comes possibilities. The possibility of making my own choices as to where I want to study, the possibilities of choosing what kind of internships I want to apply for – the possibilities are endless. Now I’m fully aware that some of you may be reading this and wondering, ‘where’s her acknowledgement of the fact that she’s now legal to drink.’ Well although that may be a perk for some people – scratch that – most people; I personally am indifferent. I was telling my friend the other day that I’m legal..for jobs! And I said it with so much excitement that they all proceeded to laugh, understandably so because the word ‘legal’ doesn’t exactly link to what I feel 18 has provided me with so far but I guess I’ve redefined the word to suit me.
Anyway, the point is, I’m no longer that scared. I’m more-so excited , excited to see what the future brings and excited that I’ve been bestowed with some kind of control over my life, which is probably what made me so envious of 18 year olds at 11. They just always seemed so poised and together to me and even though I can most definitely admit that as a new 18 year old I am FAR from poised, I’m learning that being Tolu is not so bad.
What do you think about the age ’18’?
Peace & Love,